Sunday, December 30, 2012

GIVEAWAY...2 WINNERS...IN 2 DAYS...HURRY!

So I'm a little slow but I have 2...yes 2 My Memories AMAZING software to giveaway in a jiffy!! If you have missed the last couple giveaways then read here all about what you an do with this awesome software!

So how do you win? Leave a quick comment with only 1...I have many but you only have to share 1...new years resolutions or something you want to improve or just accomplish in this brand spanking new year! And since there will be 2 winners, I thought I will give you 2 chances to win. If you aren't a follower of my blog start following...and if you already are a rock star follower just leave a comment saying that you are or that you are now following! That will put your name in for 2 chances in this random drawing. GOT IT!

You want this software so you can download all the fun freebies that I post to use with your software. Remember...If you aren't the winner remember there is a coupon code STMMMS234 to get $10 off that you can use at checkout to buy the software ANY time and get it for a whopping $30 instead of $40.

Do it fast cuz I will pick the 2 lucky winners bright and early on the NEW YEARS DAY...only 2 days...Where in the world has time gone?! SERIOUSLY!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Because HE came...Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas!!


Our Christmas looks VERY different I'm sure then any other family out there with a 4 year old. We tried out best to make it feel like it should be...but it didn't work. Dakota had more of a sad day then he has in awhile so that was hard BUT even though for a split second I wanted to feel bad for myself I didn't.

I truly enjoyed and focused my thoughts on what Christmas is all about...Christ! And that is ALL that mattered today. It didn't matter that I woke up at 6:45 to a screaming 4 year old instead of a super excited and anxious kid wondering what Santa brought. It didn't matter that Dakota cared less about what was in his stocking.

Christ came into the world today to bring us PEACE, HOPE, and JOY and that is what made me happy today!!!

My sister Shana teaches the Young Woman of her ward and she asked me to write a brief little something on how Christ has helped me through my journey that she could share with them last Sunday. I appreciated this opportunity especially at this time because it allowed me to reflect on my Savior and his love for me.

I thought I would share it on this special day and encourage anyone that reads this to think about how Christ has helped you as well through your life's journey. ;)


HOW CHRIST HAS HELPED ME THROUGH MY JOURNEY

It's hard to pinpoint just 1 exact thing how Christ has helped me. It has been a long process and I continually lean on him still EVERY day to help me get through each day. One of the most significant times when I needed it the most and when I can remember is the few days after Dakota's accident. While he laid on the hospital bed looking not much like his active self, that I had just held that same day...with the unknown answer of whether or not he was going to live or die...I found myself in a VERY dark hole. It is hard to describe the anguish I felt at the thought of losing my ONLY child! I wondered who I would be if I wasn't a mother anymore! The thought of it tore me apart and I literally felt darkness around me. I couldn't feel or see any light at all. It was a very depressing moment in my life. I don't know at what point it came exactly but over the next couple days...even though the situation with Dakota hadn't changed much at all, through the help of my Savior I began even through the tears to feel a little sense of peace that no matter what happens it will be okay. I prayed for Dakota's happiness in the end...whether it be in my arms or the Saviors I wasn't sure...but as my prayers turned to Dakota and his well being, my Savior pulled me out of that dark hole and assured me that it would be okay. I was able to feel peace amongst the turmoil and I was even able to bring a smile back to my face at times. Even those around me could see the change in my countenance.


Even though things haven't turned out exactly as I had hoped they would and every day I still miss my active little boy...through Christ I am able to continue on with HOPE that one day all will be well. Dakota will run, talk, and play again and my husband will be able to see again. One day because Christ came and suffered for me I will feel joy and all the pain and heartache will be gone. He didn't take away all of my problems and make everything perfect YET but he is there to help me carry the heavy load that I feel each day when I LET HIM! On my hardest days when I am in tears and I know there is no one that can understand how hard things are and how much I want to give up...I know that I can kneel and pray and that my Savior knows. He knows how hard it is for me. He knows how much it hurts to see your child not be the way he used to be. He knows how hard it is to have to miss out on what could have been. HE is the ONLY one that knows me and the way I feel and most importantly how to help me BECAUSE he came, he suffered, and he lives for me and each one of you!
 
May you feel the light of Christ in your life today and EVERY day!!
 
 

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Facing my fear...THE FENCE

It's hard to describe Dakota's accident to people...how do you explain that "a fence" SOMEHOW...still not sure how...fell on top of my child and didn't allow him to breathe. When you think about this accident it is truly incomprehensible. How could a fence fall so perfectly on top of a little 2 year old that he couldn't breathe and cry out for help. It could have fallen a million different ways and different spots. It didn't even leave a cut, scratch, or mark on him...he just couldn't breathe.

It's hard for me to still wrap my mind around how this could have happened. The most logical explanation was that he tried to climb it and it fell back on him BUT I don't believe that is what happened either. Dakota was one of the most cautious and careful kids. He wasn't daring or crazy or adventurous. He liked to hold your hand when going down the stairs. He would say "I got you" and grab your arm when we held him over the sink to wash his hands. It just wasn't his nature to  do crazy things so climbing that fence just doesn't make sense.

Because of the craziness of how it all happened that turned my perfectly healthy 2 year old into a child with a traumatic brain injury...I know that it was supposed to happen. It was part of our Heavenly Father's plan for him...for us. This knowledge brings me some comfort but I look forward to the day where I can understand it all perfectly. I have a lot of questions for the man upstairs...hope He has time! ;)

We have gone back to my parents several times since the accident and it hasn't bothered me much. They live on 5 acres and we have been out back around where the accident happened a lot to ride horses and play.

BUT...it wasn't until this last trip down there for Thanksgiving that I realized I have NEVER actually looked at that exact spot where I found my sweet boy lying. I don't think consciously I ever realized this or did it on purpose...I just think I wasn't ready...even without ever thinking about it.

Well, one of the days we were there Dakota and I were riding horses with my dad out along the back of their property...and I did it. I looked over at that spot...I felt the need to. When I looked and saw that same fence rail that had fallen on him leaning against the fence I felt a rush of anger come over me. I was a little shocked it was still there. I wasn't mad at my parents I was just mad at that fence! I wanted to go cut it up in little pieces and throw it in a fire. Not that the fire would have done anything to it but I was just plain mad at that stupid fence!! WHY did it have to ruin my life?!

It took me a few minutes to come back to my senses and remember that if it wasn't that fence it would have been something else. It was all part of Heavenly Father's plan and it was going to happen with or without the fence. It could have been anything. (I still hate that fence though)

 
Many people...especially little kids wonder...what kind of fence fell on him. I think that is the #1 question that little kids ask me when they hear about Dakota. So now you can see...it's just a stupid little fence. Who would have known it had that much power to do such a horrible thing?! Not me!

Monday, November 26, 2012

2 Years Ago Our Lives were FOREVER changed



Today marks the 2 year anniversary of the day my little world was shattered to pieces. Thinking back to that day makes me physically nauseous. It's the day my perfect, healthy boy sacrificed his little body and brain to teach his mom and dad and SO many others around him how to appreciate the little things, how to love more deeply, and how much we need our Savior Jesus Christ in our lives.

I didn't think it would affect me too much today...it's just another day. Every day when I look at Dakota I am reminded of that day...why would November 26th change anything? But it has been different already. I shed a few tears of sadness but mostly I just wanted to hold Dakota a little tighter, kiss him a little more, and just appreciate his sweet face.

Every day is still a challenge to cope and handle what we have been given, BUT I have learned a lot along the way and today I am grateful more then ever to have my sweet little Dakota to hug and hold.

I think he knew that this was gonna be hard time for his mom because this last week and a half he has been EXTREMELY happy and sweet and SO fun to be around. He knew I needed it now more then ever. He is the smartest and sweetest little angel I have and ever will meet.

The other day Zach  (who is not always the most positive thinker) told me...I started thinking...if Dakota turned back to the healthy boy that he once was today...would I miss anything from the way he is now? He said YES I would! So if there is something to miss...their is something to be grateful for! Then ended with...it's easier said then done.
It is SO true. Even though I still desperately miss my active, healthy, and playful boy...there are SO many things about the way he is now that I love. It's a different kind of love that I can't even describe. But my heart is full with love and gratitude for HIM!!

My sweetest friend whom I met only because of Dakota sent me this AMAZING poem and necklace. She said not to open it til today...I was tempted ;) but waited and I'm SO grateful I did!
It has a D, an angel wing, a cowboy boot, and his birth stone!
IN LOVE!! THANK YOU JENELL!!!


I have to share the poem she gave me because it is PERFECTLY written for my brave little Dakota. I truly believe he chose to suffer for me and anyone else whose lives have crossed his path...so PLEASE read it and cry with me! ;)

Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. He especially enjoyed the love he saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however the little soul was sad, for on this day he saw suffering in the world. He approached God and sadly asked "Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?" God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people's hearts." The little soul was confused.  "What do you mean?" he asked. God replied, "Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and they become motivated by love alone."

The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued. "The suffering soul unlocks the love in people's hearts much like the sun and rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this- it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer- to unlock this love- to create this miracle for the good of all humanity."

Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. With his wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied, "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people's harts! I want to create that miracle!"
God smiled and said, "You area brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you."

God and the brave soul shared a smile, and then embraced. In parting, God said, "Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed."
Thus at that moment the brave soul was born into the world, and through his suffering and God's strength, he unlocked the goodness and love in people's hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and come together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys, and some regained lost faith- many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.

THANK YOU MY BRAVE LITTLE DAKOTA...FOR SUFFERING FOR ME!! I ALWAYS HAVE KNOWN YOU ARE SO MUCH BRAVER, STRONGER, SMARTER, SWEETER, AND LOVING THEN ME! THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME BE YOUR MOM!! I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK...AND THEN SOME MORE!!!!










I ran across this video as I was searching for something. It was when Dakota was just barely 1! Had to share it because I love that sweet face and laugh!!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Halloween & Hunting

It's almost thanksgiving so i figured I better get my butt in gear and get Halloween out of the way. :) Two of my favorite things about fall is Halloween and hunting. The two are not related in any way but they are both fun.

So this Halloween was much better then last. No trip to the hospital...just a healthy and happy boy. While I was in AZ Dakota got to go to the pumpkin patch with grammy, poppy, daddy, and his cousins. He is a spoiled and very loved little boy.
The crew minus Poppy

Grammy, poppy, and the grandkids

Kota and Poppy
Maelee loves Dakota!!

Picking out his pumpkin with dad

Loves his daddy that's for sure!
 

He got to dress up in his handsome, manly pirate costume for school and have a Halloween party with his friends.
Waving bye to his mom! :)

Then we had a family Halloween party with Zach's family. Zach's mom once again went all out with a fun and creepy dinner, fun games, and of course costumes. Now I wasn't sure if we could top last years costume of a tampon and period...but I think we did pretty good. ;) As soon as I saw this costume online I knew it was THE ONE!
It was simple and funny...that's what I'm all about.

Everyone looked pretty dang awesome especially our little pirate!!
Arghhh!
 
The whole gang (except Ryan & Lindsay :( )

What a cute family photo...I think I will frame this one! ;)

The Hadleys

Grammy & Poppy...I mean Shrek and Fiona with the grand kids.

The LaRoses

Grammy and Poppy
Check out that bling!
 
Dinner
 
Cheers with our ghost drinks

Game for the kids

Dakota bout to land on the winning picture! ;)

He is not very humble...sticking his tongue out at the losers!

Us girls playing a candy corn game...I'm not gonna lie...I tore this one up...I didn't know I was so good at transferring candy corn with a spoon by mouth! ;)

Zach tore this game up...spitting out a pumpkin seed the farthest!  I was SO proud!

Houston getting ready for the doughnute eating contest!

Fortunately my husband is also very talented at eating doughnuts with no hands...

CHAMPION!! I guess we are just a really talented couple...we can't help it! ;)
 
 
Halloween day we decided to try out Logan's main street trick or treating. I thought this would be perfect for Dakota because it was such a nice day and trying to take him to people's houses....going up all their steps just didn't sound very fun. So on main street he got to stay in the stroller and go into the fun stores and get a treat. Luckily we were accompanied by the amazing Morrison family and Stoan his future roping buddy was such an awesome helper and friend for us. He would hold the door open for us, pick a candy for Dakota and give it to him. It was so much fun especially with great company!! Thanks Emmi!!
3 Handsome boys!!
 
The rest of the night we got to stay home and pass out treats to our cute little neighbors!!


Pheasant hunting just closed today. It has been the only thing on Zach's mind for the last two weeks. Pheasant hunting by far is Zach's most favorite thing to hunt. If he had his sight he would probably be gone 24 hours a day for the 2 weeks it is open. It is fun to see his excitement and love for it. So as any wife of a blind man would do (at least i think...i don't know any) i try my best to get all pumped and excited about it too and gear up to go walking for hours and hours through thick brush, corn stalks taller then me, in the snow, in heavy waders...in HOPES of a CHANCE to jump one of those bad boys up. If I knew for sure there would be a pheasant in that field I would be fine with walking. But after awhile of just walking and not seeing anything your start to wonder...are pheasants even real?! ;)
You have no idea how thick this brush is!
 

Now I would like to think that I'm a pretty tough girl. I can handle a lot physically but after a couple hours of that pheasant hunting I am pooped. I guess hunting is not in my blood like it is Zach. He doesn't get how I could get so tired after a couple hours of walking when I can run a marathon but it is so different.  I try not to complain but I have to stop and take a couple breaks and tell Zach to slow down...so I think he gets the hint. ;)

Once again...my blind husband out shot me. It is seriously amazing and a little discouraging to me at the same time. I wish I could capture him on video though because it puts me in awe every time he shoots.  After a couple hours of walking and not seeing anything we decided to try out this corn field. As soon as we took like 2 steps into the field out pops this pheasant. I was so shocked I couldn't even think to get my gun up and next thing I see is Zach shoot and that thing fall. Luckily we had our friend Jake's dog with us cuz as soon as it hit the ground it took off running and Rugar grabbed it. Zach was like a little kid at Christmas and so was I. It totally changed our mood and got the adrenaline going. After a couple more passes through the corn field out pops another one right in front of me...I shoot...I miss. :( it was a little depressing. When you walk for a few hours and finally get your chance and miss...it sucks!!! So we decided to target practice on some pigeons flying by and Zach was 2 for 2 and I was 0 for 2. I can shoot a clay pigeon but when it comes to the real thing I think I better retire or start practicing more. Zach is always so cute and encouraging though and tries to compliment me anyways..."that was such a good spot, you pulled up really fast." I'm sure inside he is thinking there is no hope for this girl! ;)
Isn't he so handsome!

This is a little scary picture of me but hey it was a long 4 hours of walking okay!

After a few straight days of pheasant hunting I was happy to head to AZ for thanksgiving early. It hasn't stopped Zach while I have been gone. He went out every day without me by himself, with his dad, and with Jake. He is pretty convinced he hit 2 while he was out by himself but obviously he has a hard time finding them by himself and with no dog. I think he is ready to buy a puppy!!!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Q&A

 1. This is totally off the topic, but where did you get your entertainment center? It is EXACTLY what I have been looking, a tiny spot for the TV, and SO many good shelves for all of the cute holiday decorations.

We got our entertainment center at IKEA probably 5 years ago. It has been fun with all the shelves to put things in but it wasn't made out of the nicest material. It has already gotten a lot of scratches and dents in it just from regular wear and tear. I am ready to distress it up some more and repaint it to give it a little more spice since I cant afford to buy something new.

2. I saw the bra costume off pinterest, but couldn't figure out how to make it! How did you fashion yours to look so good?
 
Our costume was seriously so easy and took just a few minutes. We bought some big bouncy balls at Walmart for a few bucks a piece and 3 yards of fabric. I literally just took the fabric and wrapped it around Zach in the shape I wanted it to be. I cut the side to make it more like a bra shape and cut the strap and tied it all together in the back. If you saw the fabric not on, it looked so randomly shaped.  I'm sure there is a better way to do it but I was just trying to do it in a hurry and it worked out good enough. We only kept it on for the very first of the party since its not really ideal to hold Dakota with a rack that big! ;) Hope that helps.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Giveaway Winner & Fun Freebie for ANYONE

So the random lucky winner of the My Memories giveaway is Trish Booth!!!! Trish leave me a comment with your email and I will get you the coupon code to download the software! CONGRATULATIONS!!!

As always if you didn't win...stop crying...there may be a couple more chances before the end of the year if you can be patient! ;) Or if you have to have it NOW use the coupon code STMMMS234 for the software at checkout and get $10 off which makes it only $30. Do your Christmas shopping early! ;)

SO FOR THE AWESOME My Memories FREEBIE (which I get one every other week to give out)...sit down for this...it is these ADORABLE take out gift boxes. Now if you're like me...you are ALWAYS scrambling last minute to find something cute to put a little treat or gift in for someone...since you didn't plan ahead. These are perfect that you can print right out from your computer, cut out, and fold together. No more running last minute to the store...I HATE that!!

(Just click on the link to download directly to your computer...you do have to own the software to access them)

Take Out Boxes!!
Remember that the Take Out Boxes will be available for free only until November 19th.


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These boxes are super cute when they are done! Check out the

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Also for you fashion lovers out there like me!! Cute Shabby Apple is offering 10% off their "RED" dresses until November 10th! Here is a link to dresses included http://e2.ma/click/ezjwe/2h21xo/aoco5b. Just put in RED as your coupon code. If you haven't checked out their stuff you at least have to browse. They have everything from jewelry to dresses to maternity to kids to workout!

Sunday, November 4, 2012

One Proud MOM!!

I'll probably never get to have that bumper sticker that says, "my kid is an honor student" or the one with a soccer ball and Dakota's jersey number on it BUT...I'm thinking about making my own bumper sticker that says "MY KID LEARNED THE COLOR RED!" ;)

For almost every mom out there...when your child learned their colors you were probably proud but not as proud as THIS MOM when I went to Dakota's parent teacher conference in October. I have said it before but I'll say it again...I LOVE Dakota's teachers!! I loved them last year but this year I love even more. The teachers treat him like a 4 year old and work with him on the same things that the other kids work on. They were working on colors with the other kids so they said that's what Dakota will work on to (along with other things that he needs. ;) )

They started at first holding up two colors and 1 always being red and would ask him to look at the red. He never got it right at first but over the last little while has begun to get it right almost every time.

I also learned that they think his FAVORITE color is blue...such a boy! ;) They let him choose which color to put on his art stuff by having him look at it and he always would choose blue. So one day the teacher decided not to put blue in as a choice to see what he would choose and he refused to look at any of them. WHAT A STINKER POT...stubborn like another man I know that lives in this house! ;) They added blue back in and that is what he chose!

To add to my MOMMY PROUDNESS I got this note from Dakota's teacher just the other day in his back and forth notebook.
10/26/12
Tommy's parents asked if Dakota would be interested in having a play date? Tommy talks a lot about Dakota and would love to have them get together. Let me know and I will give you their number.

Now Dakota has a lot of kids that love him and are his friends BUT most are friends because their parents are friends with us and they talk about Dakota to them and instill a love for him in them. BUT this is Dakota's first REAL friend since his accident that loves him because of him and wants to play with him outside of school! He had some GREAT girlfriends last year but never got asked to hang out outside of school. So of course this made my heart SOOOO happy that this sweet little Tommy who is just a normal healthy little boy (I'm sure with lots of friends) wants to play with my sweet Dakota!! Now I just need to figure out how to word all of that into MY bumper sticker! ;)

Dakota and Tommy...his friend and protector!!
 
A couple more pics when the firefighters came to visit!

Look at my little fireman!!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

HALLOWEEN GIVEAWAY...This is not trick...just a treat! ;)

So...WONDERFUL My Memories is letting me giveaway ANOTHER one of their AWESOME scrapbooking, card making, calendar making, creative making  award winning digital scrapbooking softwares to one lucky winner!!

I whipped up a fun little Halloween card in just a few minutes with it to show you things you could do...and I'm not very creative so this is not much at all.
(Get the message...we are a bra! Poor Dakota...his parents are SO embarrassing!)


This was a pre-made page I just easily added my pictures, text, and a few leaves on the side to it and done! The possibilities are endless.

And remember...almost weekly My Memories gives me freebies to giveaway that anyone who owns the software can add to it just by clicking the links to download. Whenever I get them I will post them on my blog for anyone who wants them.

If you aren't the winner remember there is a coupon code STMMMS234 to get $10 off that you can use at checkout to buy the software and get it for a whopping $30 instead of $40.

ANYWAYS...to enter the giveaway just leave a comment with your name and what you were or are for Halloween or your kids if you didn't dress up (just for fun) and I will randomly choose a winner on NOVEMBER 7th. (1 week away!!)

GOOD LUCK and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

Friday, October 26, 2012

Where has October gone???

Halloween is right around the corner and I realize whether I like it or not...Fall is here and Winter is knocking on my door.
There are MANY things that I LOVE about Fall but also many that I don't!
I LOVE the BEAUTIFUL leaves ALL over the mountains that change into vibrant red, orange, yellow, and pink. Growing up in AZ we didn't get to experience this beautiful scenery.

I love the holidays, and busting out the decorations to give the house a fresh new look to look at for awhile.

My spooky ghosts I made at girls craft night out...yes this exists! ;)

A little kid came over and drew the stuff on the right..J/K...it was really me but it looks like a kid did it...that's the best of my art abilities! ;)

Should have taken pics before it was all eaten...at least it was a decoration put to good use! ;)

 
It says "Happy Haunting" totally free printable I found off Pinterest. LOVE!!

My fun book pumpkin I copied from my awesome neighbor Alyssa!


Love this cute little pumpkin! (Just covered it with some tights)

This is my MOST favorite decoration of all! Makes me smile EVERY day! He made the CUTEST sheriff I have EVER seen!!!


Busted out old Halloween pics...so fun!!!
 


My ride!

LOVE LOVE my fun pumpkins from the local fruit stand!
 

I love the family and friend time spent with parties and fun. I LOVE the fun fall and winter clothes...that is also something I have didn't get to experience living in AZ. I never even owned a pair of boots (besides cowboy boots) before I moved to South Dakota. Now boots and scarfs are probably some of my most favorite accessories! ;)

I DON'T love that I have to start bundling up to go for a run and busting out the headlamp again. I don't love that the sun doesn't shine quit as much as it used to and give you the warm fuzzy feeling when you walk into it's light. I hate all the germs and sickness that goes around. I hate having to bundle Dakota up to just go for a walk.
He doesn't mind ;)

The hardest of all...is the reminder that THIS is the time of year where my life was changed forever.

Right before Dakota's accident Zach's mom wanted to take Dakota for the evening to get some pictures of him in their Fall leaves before they cleaned them all up. Besides our family pictures they were some of the last taken of him that showed his sweet, sweet face and personality for who he really was. It wasn't til a few months ago that she first showed and gave them to me. She told me to look at them on a day that I was already crying. The first time I looked at them they didn't make me cry...they made me smile. Inside I LOVE to remember him that way even though it hurts. To me...it's as if he is stuck right at that age and that time of life because that is what I remember. It's hard to think that he is really 4 now and that he has grown so much because to me he is still that little boy. Time stopped on November 26, 2010 for me, and even though life is still moving forward and he is still growing up right before my eyes, in a way I can't go on until I see that little boy just like this again.

Oh the many faces!!!!!























 
So grateful Vicki captured this boy so well!!
 
SO back to October cuz that is what I meant this blog post to be about (lucky for me it is MY journal so it can go wherever I want it too! ;) )
Most important happening is that Zach FINALLY caught up to his old lady and turned 28 on the 19th!! As I always say...birthdays should be celebrated ALL week, so we partied it up. The Sunday before his birthday we had a family party with his family.
Our sweet nephew Houston joined our family for the pic...love that kid!

Helped Uncle Zach with the candles


Each day up til his birthday I gave him a little treat. We went out to Chilis a couple days before and got our favorite Molten cake. The night before I made him OUR favorite...chocolate cake with rainbow chip frosting...very fancy I know! ;)
He didn't want to be in the pic...so here is the fancy cake! ;)

The day of his birthday I had to fly out to AZ for my BIG 10 year high school reunion (I know I am a horrible wife) BUT I had a secret spy leave him a piece of Maddox's famous banana cream pie with a letter from me so he would know I was thinking of him. BUT because I have THE SWEETEST husband in the world...he didn't even eat it and saved it for me because he knew how much I love it...he is MOST DEFINITELY a keeper! ;)

Don't worry while I was gone he still got pampered cuz his sweet grandparents took him and Dakota to lunch, his sweet brother and wife took him to dinner that night, AND his sister Jenny took him for a massage the next so REALLY...I'm pretty sure he was just fine without me! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACHARY JAY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

I was spoiled this month too because my sister Annie and her husband came into town for a quick trip and we got to spend a night with them. Then right after they left my sister Katie came into town for a few days to do some permanent makeup on some people up here and to hang out with her favorite sister! ;) Then not long after that, is when I got to go down to AZ for the weekend to go to my 10 year reunion. SO I have LOVED October! ;)

I got to AZ on Friday and went straight to work helping get ready my family's annual Halloween party. I was SO excited that it fell on the same weekend I was coming. My sister Annie and I set up a rockin haunted house in her garage and there were 5 adults in their scaring the kids at different spots. Let's just say...we did a GREAT job...kids were crying and freaking out...even the 10 year olds! ;)


Nana hiding in her position as a scary witch! ;)

WATCH OUT!!!
 
 Annie planned some fun games for the kids too...she is so creative!
Decorating cookies with Nana

Trying to get the doughnut

Punch the bowl game to get a prize and answer a fun question about yourself


We had some pretty rad costumes if I say so myself! ;)
Yes...that is me! Bob Marley if you didn't know! ;) I LOVED seeing the kids reaction "Tessie...is that you?!" "How did you get your skin like that?"

Dawn was my hippy date that night! Peace and Love!!

Some pirates showed up...too bad Dakota wasn't there with them...he is a pirate this year too!

Masquerade Lady struttin her stuff!

80's workout chic yelling at Areal for eating a cookie! ;)

Batman with his teeth he won!

Captain Andrew...I mean America!

Wonder Woman juicing up!

Some really buff green guys!

That night I had a girl sleepover with all the older girl nieces and my sister Dawn. It was great to have some good ole Dawn time! ;) And niece time!!! :)

The next day I got to watch one niece play soccer and another play softball.
GO SHEA!!!

GO PAIGE!! She got a awesome hit right here...learned from the best! ;)

Then spent all afternoon with my bestie Abbey...getting our nails done, eating some lunch, and a little shopping too! Before we knew it the time had flown by and we were gonna miss the reunion.

She was my hot date since my party pooper husband didn't want to come with me. ;) I didn't blame him since he would know hardly anyone...so I let him off the hook which was probably best for the both of us because then I didn't have to worry all night about him having fun and wanting to leave, instead of enjoying the time talking with old friends.

All ready to go!

It was SO much more fun then I expected. It was pretty laid back and dinner was served from a Taco truck. Everyone just walked around and chit chatted away...took a few pictures and before I knew it it was time to go. It was so good to see so many great people.
Me and some of the clan. I was lame and didn't bust out my camera til the end so hopefully you other ladies out there will pass them around! ;)
 
Back under the Tiger again! ;)

 I have to admit...I can still remember senior year talking to all my friends and totally talking about going to our 10 year reunion. I remember thinking about what I pictured my life being like. Let's just say, it is NOTHING like I EVER imagined it being. I did marry Prince Charming and gave birth to an angel boy but everything else...let's just say I could have done without! :)

Right after I got back from AZ, the next morning at 4:30 A.M. we headed up for a couple days to go deer hunting. To sum up this years hunt...let's just say it made me want to retire my deer hunting career without EVER getting a deer. It was FREEZING, RAINING, WINDY, and to top it off we didn't see even ONE buck. Not even a chance to get excited and make sitting out in the rain and wind thinking I was going to die worth it. And I'm not just being a wimpy girl...Zach and my hunting partner Jake were freezing too and hated it. The one night we slept in the tent we woke up in the night thinking the top was gonna blow over it was blowing so hard. We did have some good laughs, roasted some good ole hot dogs, and enjoyed it the best we could. Let's hope that one of these years I will actually get to shoot something besides a water bottle! ;)
Zach getting ready to roast

Jake my guide

That is my sexy self if you can't tell! ;) 3 layers on my head, 5 layers on top, 3 on my legs, and 2 on my feet, and I still thought I was gonna die!

Our amazing fire that I NEVER wanted to die out.

Me and my husband on our romantic getaway!
 
After pretty much 5 days of being away from Dakota...I was definitely missing him. I know he had a blast with daddy, grammy, Aunt Jenny, and nurse Annette but it was sure nice to snuggle that little bug again! I know I am partial but he has the sweetest and cutest face in the world!! Since I have been back I have seen more smiles and laughs on that boy then I have in a LONG time!! Maybe he just needed a break from his mom!
 
He did have his last day of horse therapy before I left...at least until April. We will miss it!
His last ride he was fussin quite a bit until...he spit up all over the therapists arm and himself...then he was all smiles.

I missed the smiles but at least it's not a sad face!
 
Phew...THE END!