Monday, October 21, 2013

We Gone and DONE it!!!

Well…it’s official…Dakota is SO happy to announce that on May 8th he will be the…

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AAAAHHHHH!!!

We are so excited, nervous, scared, and thrilled ALL in ONE!!!

When I wrote that post about the question we always get about having a baby, I had no idea it was going to be this soon.

I have always been more ready then Zach but whenever I tried to maybe persuade him it never ended well. So…not saying I gave up, but I accepted the fact that he wasn’t ready and I didn’t even wanna try and convince him until he was the one that was ready. I had NO idea how long that would be but I decided it didn’t matter. It was going to be a tough road whenever we decided to have a baby…so I needed to make sure he WANTED it just as badly as I did cuz their was NO way I was going to even think about trying to do it “on my own idea.”

So one day we were driving in the car (well I was driving ;) ) and he finally said…I think I’m ready to have another baby. I NEED another little voice in my life.

A WHOLE flood of emotions came over me and I was shocked, happy, excited, nervous, and really a little freaked out all in one. The joy I felt from hearing those words out of HIS mouth was indescribable. I really wasn’t sure if I ever would…although I hoped I would.

I felt like we were having a baby at that very moment and that was when I freaked myself out. My mind started racing…this is really it!! Am I REALLY ready for this?! I mean I have wanted it badly but can I REALLY do it?! What if something does happen to this baby like Zach has always worried about?! Could I really emotionally and physically deal with that?! Zach was always my cop out on why we haven’t decided and now that he was in…I needed to make sure I was really in!!

But of course I was…so we started the hunt for some private insurance that had some kind of maternity coverage because the one we were currently on had none. We got all that was offered for private insurances…a whopping $7,500 deductible. But obviously we know things can go wrong VERY easily, so something is ALWAYS better then nothing!!

We got signed up, waited a month to be members, and then I stopped taking the pill! ;)
I had no idea how fast it would be and frankly I was okay if it took a little while. I wanted to make sure we were really ready for this! ;)

I prayed my little heart out to my loving Heavenly Father that He would give us this baby when HE thought we were ready physically, emotionally, spiritually, and all around. I didn’t want a baby until He knew we could do it because He sees the big picture. He knew how hard it would be for us and all that lied ahead…so I put my faith in him and….

Lo and behold…first month this little peanut was given to us!

I truly feel like Heavenly Father was ready for us to take on another one of his precious children but He wanted us to want it and feel like we were ready. Sometimes I even prayed when Zach was being stubborn about it that He would just send us one even though we were taking birth control cuz I didn’t think Zach would ever commit. He obviously knew that wouldn’t be the best situation for us and that WE needed to want this little spirit just as badly as He wanted us to have it!

I feel SO blessed and comforted in knowing He trusts us again to have another!

SO…I am almost 12 weeks along and can really say I have been feeling pretty dang good! I have my tired spells where I feel like I can’t keep my eyes open for one more minute so I indulge in naps more often then I ever have when I get the chance. I went through a blah stage where I didn’t feel great but didn’t feel horrible…usually the nights were the worst. But I have never thrown up so I really can’t complain. I don’t know how all you woman who are so sick all the time do it???!!! My breasts KILLED for about 10 days straight ALL the time and I feel like they grew every day of that. I even got asked if I got a boob job? Nope…just pregnancy. Don’t you think for all that our bodies go through at least we should be able to keep our boobs?? ;) j/k…kind of! ;) I already feel like I’m showing way more then I should at this point. My pants are already feeling tight and I’m a little worried this may be a long 9 months! ;) Is that normal to already feel this big at 12 weeks?? It has been so long (over 5 years) since I was pregnant so I truly can’t remember much about how I felt with Dakota. (This is why you get all these fun details…for my rememberance! ;))

The thing that I am MOST worried about is when I get REALLY big…how I will carry and take care of Dakota. He is already getting pretty big, heavy, and awkward to carry around and when I have a huge belly it will be quite a bit more awkward. Obviously, we will make it work but I am a little nervous.
I am MOST excited about when I get to FEEL this baby inside of me! It will feel SO much more real and I truly can’t wait!!!

Gender you ask?! We truly and honestly don’t care!! We just want a healthy baby…and I mean that more then anyone you have EVER heard say that!!! I am nervous somthing will be wrong but I have tried to pray and put my faith and trust in my Heavenly Father that he will take all the fear from me and help me to focus on the excitement of it all.

I want whatever gender will be best for Dakota. I think a sister might be more loving, sweet, helpful, and kind to him. I also don’t know if we will have another child after this or not. We aren’t making any plans…just take it one at a time. SO of course EVERY mom wants a daughter…so for that reason a girl would be great! Also…we only have girl names that we like right now…not boy names.

A brother would be so fun for Dakota though so he could play boy stuff with Dakota and be his little buddy and protector. And personally…I just LOVE boys!! I LOVED playing boy stuff with Dakota and I just think little boys are the cutest things on the planet!! (it would also save me some money since little girls have WAY too many cute and fun things! ;))

So in the end…we are just plain excited!!!

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42 comments:

  1. Eeeeekkkk! Tessie congrats! I am beyond thrilled for you, Zach and Dakota! Wahoo!

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    1. Thanks Callie!!! You are having one too...what is your due date?!

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  2. I am seriously dying right now. Tears, squeeled out loud, and already to call and tell my family! Tessie and Zack I am so so so excited for you three! Its not as if you two aren't amazing enough as parents/couple, but this is great. You two can do this, and are already doing it! LOVE YOU BOTH!!! CONGRATS!!!

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    1. Thanks SO much Jena!! You are so cute! thanks for being so excited for us and having so much confidence in us! ;) Love you!

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  3. I'm so happy for you! You two are AMAZING parents. I can't stop thinking about how much this is going to benefit ALL of you and Dakota will be such a great BIG BRO! Way to be!

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    1. Thanks Mel!! I'm SO excited for YOUR big day!!! Just got your announcement in the mail!!! My heart is SO happy for you!!! And yes...Dakota will be a great big bro!!

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  4. Tessie you are one amazing woman! I truly admire your strength and testimony. Your faith can move mountains. These kids of yours are so blessed to call you Mom! I'm beyond exited for you guys...Congrats!

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    1. Ticey you are the sweetest!!! Thank you SO much!!! I sure hope they will feel that way! I will save this comment for when this baby gets older so they will know how cool their mom is! ;) JK

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  5. Tess how exciting such a fun way to start my week! I can't wait to tell Steve! So excited for you all! What a fun fun fun addition to your already amazing family! We love your guts!! :)

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    1. Aw thanks so much Jordan!! Now it is your turn!!! Lot's and lot's of prayers being sent your way! miss ya! Let's get together!!!! We love you guys!!

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  6. I am so excited for your family. I can't wait to start knitting for you.

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    1. Thanks Kerry!!! You are so sweet!!!!!!

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  7. This is such great exciting news!!! You are amazing parents and I know will do a great job!!

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    1. Thank you so much for your confidence!! ;) We got this!! I hope! ;)

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  8. Such exciting news! It's been inspiring to read about your family on your blog and I'm excited to watch this next adventure unfold!

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    1. Thanks Hiedi!!! So good to see your name!! Thank you for stopping by and reading! Hope your cute family is doing well!!

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  9. CONGRATS TESSIE!!! I am so happy for your family, babies are the best! With Liam I started showing really early and hear that is pretty common for your second baby. I just gave in and got out the maternity pants... no use fighting those stretchy comfy pants, especially since there are so many cute styles!

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    1. Thanks Rachel! You are the baby queen at your house so I will take your word for it! Bring those stretchy pants on!! ;) I'm wondering if it is from the frosting I have been eating and not the baby though! ;)

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  10. Soo VERY exciting!! Congratulations to ALL of you!!! Such a BLESSING!!!

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    1. Thanks Juliet!!! It is a HUGE blessing!!!

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  11. So sooooooo happy for the three of you!!!! What a sweet blessing.

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    1. Thank you thank you for being soooooo happy for us!! We appreciate it so much!!

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  12. Congratulations! I've followed your blog for some time, creepy I know :) but I just wanted to let you know how happy I am for your sweet family. Your new son or daugher will be blessed to have such a loving family.

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    1. Thank you!!! You are not creepy at all! Thanks for taking the time to stop by, read, and care about our little crazy family!! Means so much!!

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  13. What exciting news!! I've been following you blog for a little while and your family continues to amaze me with your strength. I know that you will able to handle this just as well as you do now.

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    1. Thanks Megan for your confidence in us!!! Sure means a lot!!! Thanks for following!

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  14. Yay!! Congratulations. I am not in the same situation you are, or anywhere near that. I am 32 and married and we are still waiting. My husband needs to take National Board exams and people kinda get on me about not waiting any longer but it felt nice to read your post because it is a very mutual decision and it's not worth doing it on your own so I keep waiting until we're both ready. I have only read your blog for a few months and hope to spend more time reading your history but thank you for shaing your stories publicly so we can all learn. Thank you. Congratuations! I am excited for you guys.

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    1. Sarah hang in there girl! Don't let other people get to you! I have learned through all of this it is YOUR family! There is NO right way to do it. You do what is best for YOUR family and that is what is right! Having a husband on board is for sure important because it is a HUGE life changer. Sometimes they need a little bug in their ear once in awhile but in the end...let him be ready too!! Can't wait for you to experience motherhood though! It sure is great, hard, fun, and crazy! ;)

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  15. Wow. What great news. Blessings all round! Hugs from Cape Town.

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    1. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! hugs from UT!!!! ;)

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  16. Congrats! So happy and excited for you guys. This little baby is so blessed. You are an amazing mother to Dakota, and will rock it with #2

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    1. Oh Andria! Thank you for your excitement and confidence in me! ;) Wish I felt that confident! ;)

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  17. Tessie and Zach AND Dakota, I am so happy to hear this wonderful news! So glad I read your blog tonight. I called your mom yesterday, by accident, and she was helping her sister with a roundup, and we didn't get to talk in detail about our kids. I am just so thrilled that you are going to have your baby! ! You know I think you are a very special family and this little peanut is so blessed to come to your home. Give Dakota a big hug from me. I know the Lord will sustain and bless you. love ya all tons...

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    1. Carla...made my hear SO happy to see your sweet name on here!! You are a true angel!! Thank you for your excitement and confidence in us!! I truly believe the Lord is blessing us with this little miracle and will sustain us through the easy and hard times of it all! We sure love you!!!! Dakota will get a hug as soon as he gets up from his nap from his Angel Carla!!!

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  18. Waaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!! So excited for you guys!!! Whenever it gets too hard to carry Dakota you call me! l'll come load him up in the car for you, we can go grocery shopping together so I can load him in and out of the grocery cart.....whatever you need you say the word!!!! I'm only across the street so use me!!!

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    1. Thanks Terra!!! I may take you up on that for sure! ;) Not that your hands aren't full with 3 now! ;)

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  19. So happy for you guys!!! Dakota will have so much fun with a little brother or sister. So happy for you and especially for Dakota. Nothing like a sibling!!

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    1. Courtney it is SO true!!! I LOVE having siblings and I couldn't imagine not giving that opportunity to Dakota!! I hope he gets a sweet one! ;)

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  20. So we have never met, but I have read your blog for a while now and have loved your faith and optimism through all of your trials. You really are an amazing women and I love reading your blog, so I just wanted to write a quick comment to say CONGRATS! You two are seriously the cutest parents. So excited for your family to become a family of 4 and see the fun new adventures you'll have. :)

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    1. Thank you SO much!!! Thank you for taking the time to congratulate us and for your most sweet words! Sure means a lot!! There will be MANY adventures to come I am sure!! I sure hope I am really ready for them!! AAAHHH! ;)

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